Always, Earthday
Hey People!
I hope that everyone‘s having a wonderful Monday and has a great week!!
I am 40 at last!!
I’m so happy to have been borne on 420 that there are simply no words.
I wanted to share some of my past to celebrate it!
This is a digital work that I made of artworks I made for my theatre family years ago.
At that time I did not fully believe in myself or my own worth.
I was thankful to the people that I worked with and loved them. That’s all that I knew and cared about at that time.
One of the things that I learned from art is that life is way to short not to live for today.
You do not have to deal with it simply by walking away or by being rude, etc.
At one time I would let people hurt my feelings because they would have events, etc. that would totally ignore me while making sure to invite others who I knew.
All the while, I praised them! Trying to gain their love and respect.
I did not expect anyone to be buddy buddy with me. That’s not how theatre works. We don’t all know eachother on a personal level. Love is different at different levels. I will forever love my art family.
I go through hard days but even during those hard days I absolutely love my art family. I know that some locally don’t know why or even take the time to find out why I feel certain ways.
I learned through years though that some simply didn’t want to take the chance of treating me as everyone else because that meant they might get to know me.
Theatre wasn’t like that when I had more to offer others or when people realised what I had to offer.
I’ve actually always had alot to offer but like everyone needed a friend to help remind me or encourage me.
Thank God that art family’s worldwide though.
I don’t just have family here in Ga. now! I have family everywhere and I love them. I’ve learned alot from them too, alot more then they could possibly know!
That does not mean that I wish to get to know each of them personally, etc.
Why should I?
I’m so not impressed with money or positions, etc. it’s not funny.
If ya want to know me and think ya have what it takes, bring it on babe!
I’m not the scared type. Bring it…I dare ya…
That DOES mean that I love and respect everyone personally way more then I ever could professionally.
It takes a strong soul to be in the artworld and I completely respect that and am beyond proud to be a part of it.
Some talk to me today and some don’t.
It took me years to realise that not everyone is going to care about me the same way I have cared about them but not to harden all of my heart to only protect it because there are people who care. There are people who will believe in me.
Just as my friend there are people who believe in YOU!
I felt for years that I had to earn the love and respect from people in my life in and out of the artworld.
I’ve worked for years for free. Nothing but my heart pulled me along, so if I haven’t earned love and respect I nolonger need it.
What I have to say to those who hang onto bad things is holding onto the bad things will not help you!
It is not wrong that you are alive. You deserve life.
Don’t let what others say bring you down because that gives them power over you and that only harms you, creates inner pain and stops you from creating the joy that you can bring to this world.
The world needs that special gift that only you have. ~Marie Forleo
Remember the love and good times and stop dwelling on what makes you upset.
Life is full of blessings…open your eyes and hearts to them. Don’t forget all the good and dwell in the bad..live!
Still, the choice is yours to make. Nobody can make that choice for you.
It took years of going back and forth from being extremely grateful to being totally heartbroken crying myself to sleep for me to realise that.
Don’t make that mistake. Don’t fully give anyone the key to your heart.
Especially those who don’t take the time to get to know you or what you have done to help people just like them.
May you not have to cry your way through sleepless nights like I did.
Most of that was actually helped by theatre because I did not have the time to think of the harm done to me, etc.
Today, I honestly give them the respect they gave me which is not to give a rats ass if I am ignored because I know my worth!
Thanks to others who have helped me see it. You guys know who you are. Please know that I absolutely love you!
I hope that whoever may be reading this knows that YOU are a bad ass and you can do it!
I figure why complain about things in life, etc. Why not go find what brings you joy and live.
Right now for example I’m going through a very hard time and doing so without the same sort of support from friends that some have.
I can dwell on that… or I can think of the good things in my life and the things that I have to give.
What makes me strong and able to handle this shit is in each person.
You are a outstandingly strong individual and can achieve anything you set your mind to. Let nobody and nothing bring you down. ~ Angela Taylor